Kau tabahkanlah hatiku YA ALLAH :'(

Assalamualaikum. Hey everybody (;
Ohh BTW, Merry Christmas for those who will be celebrating it tomorrow.
For Malaysians, Hepy Holiday !

HOME SWEET HOME ! That was the first phrase that came out of my mouth when i reached home. SO damn tired ! Tired of driving, tired of shopping, tired of hearing people shouting and etc. There`s a bunch of things that need to tell. And my heart is like wanna explode at this time ! I don`t even know how to start. Or should i do it from the very beginning then?

Ok. Friday morning, of course we would have waken up with smile. Hoping that the day will be extra ordinary great ! Yea rite. But not for me. Today, i met my lect. It`s regarding to my thesis. She said she wanna see us Friday morning. So my friends and i went to see her with 'butterflies in our stomach'. You know what, we heard so many bad and negative things about her. Yela. Dah orang cakap macam-macam. Tipu sangatlah kalau kau buat tak endah kan? At first memanglah dalam hati 'Alaa. Dorang saje je kot takut-takutkan kitorang'. Takpun, 'Alaa dorang memang ada buat salah la tuuuu' *Ayat sejukkan hati lah katakan* But then, that thing was happened to me. YES ! Me me me ! Kenapalah aku jugak mangsanya? Adoi. Come on lah. You are a lecturer. Be fair to people. Eventhough you`ve gone through bad things when you`re student, don`t just shoot us dead ! You still have to consider our rights. Ni tak, kitorang datang cara baik, dia buat macam-macam lak kan.

' Who taught you how to do the proposal? You know what, please don`t make a fool with me ! This is a serious matter. Don`t you know how to the proposal???? Who taught you? Tell me now..'

'Err. Mr Ku..'

'Who is he? Is he a lecturer or a teacher? Dari sekolah ke kolej?'

'Err. He is from *sumwhere*'

' I do not know whether he taught you this or you don`t even know what you are doing ! I`m not gonna teach you how to do the proposal. I`M ONLY HERE TO SUPERVISE YOU AND NOT TEACHING YOU. Read more journals and articles. Do your read up. I`m not gonna teach you. Ask your friends from other universities. Don`t you have other friends from other IPT?'

'Err. Yes madam.'

'So, Ask themmmmm ! Ni proposal pon macam ape. What is this ????? Using crossword puzzle to improve vocab? Who did this?'

'Err. Me madam. I did that topic.'

'These objectives are not clearrrr !!!! What is this?? What method do you use?'

'Errrrrrrrrr...'

'If you do not answer now, i bet you won`t do well for this research !!!' *mata terjegil pandang aku sambil tunjuk jari telunjuk kat depan muka aku*


Lepas tu, dia mula hentam sorang-sorang. Paling banyak kena marah, aku dengan member aku sorang lagy. Tiba-tiba menyesal duk depan meja dia. Dah la dia tengking tak beringat ! Ohh. Lupa nak bagitau, SILA BACA PERBUALAN DI ATAS DENGAN INTONASI KEREK DAN MARAH OHH DAN TAK LUPA JUGA, INTONASI NYARING DAN TINGGIIIIII !


It`s quite hard to negotiate with people which is hot tempered person. Macam mana nak deal dengan orang tengah marah. Sekali kita balas, sepuluh kali dia sembur balek kat kita. Berani korang nak tanya soalan keraguan yang bersarang dalam fikiran korang? BERANI KE? Tak kan? Macam tu jugak aku :'(

I took my shower after i reached home. I cried very badly. I`m so damn stress ! I can`t even think about other thing. My blog is the first thing that i lend my shoulder on. Tak tahu nak mengadu dengan sape dah :'( My mum was so busy handling my sis`s upcoming wedding. She will ask my opinion in everything that she will do. Even i`m taking my shower, she shouted from downstairs..

'Imaaaaaaaaa.. Turun bawah, i wanna ask your opinion ni..'

' Maaaaaaaaaaak, nantila. Ima tengah mandilaaaaaaaa'

Then after i done, i went downstairs,

'Nape mak panggil ima tadi? Ima tengah mandila'

'Ohh. Tade. Nak tanya, color ni dengan color ni matching tak? Ila cakap tak matching. Mak rasa okay je. Apa pendapat ima?'

I was likeeeeeee EIIIII. I HAVE SO MANY THINGS IN MY HEAD AND SHE JUST WANNA ASK MY OPINION ABOUT COLOR? Tak terluah dek kata-kata lah ! Speechless ! Lidah kelu !

At the end i just say, 'Maakk, matching lah. Penat je kita pilih-pilih tadi kan. Dah elok la tu.'

Then i toleh my sis and say, 'Buat jelah. Benda dah beli kan. Banyak pulak tu. Takde maknanya tetamu nak bising color tak macthing ke apa. OKAY? '

I ran upstairs with my watery eyes.


'YA ALLAH, KAU TABAHKANLAH HATI SANUBARI AKU NI YA ALLAH. BANYAK BETUL DUGAAN AKU SEKARANG. DENGAN THESIS, PERANGAI LECTURER, KESUNTUKAN MASA BELAJAR UNTUK FINALS LAGY, PRAKTIKAL YANG NTAH BERAPA MINGGU E LAGY AND ALSO KERENAH ORANG SEKELILING. KAU KURNIAKANLAH KETENANGAN BUATKU DAN KELUARGAKU. KAU BERKATILAH SEGALA PERBUATAN KAMI DAN PERANCANGAN KAMI. MOGA SEGALA PERANCANGAN BERJALAN DENGAN LANCAR. AMINNN YA RABBAL ALAMINNN..'